i am 5 foot 7 and weigh about 190 and feel totally repulsive. i am told i am beautiful and used to be a model and a dancer but i have been on medication which has drastically changed my weight ( i was 108 pounds) and i have already lost 30 pounds. i guess i have to get down to it again. i feel totally daunted but am very feisty usually so really just want encouragement.,also to offer it to other peeps hwo need it. i just wanna cry when i see myself. i used to be such a stunner. i really feel full of self the when truly its only partly my fault. i battle with a really nasty health problem and its a struggle i am in and out of hospital though nobody knows. they just think i am this amazing gorgeous person. but i am not. i am battling day in day out with pain and trying to make everything seem ok.and to earn my living in my chosen career , which is about the most competitive out there. i guess i have more to deal with than most but then, i was made pretty strong.terribly sensitive. i am addicted to chocolate and cant fast as it makes me faint and ill.my goal is 125-132
love from me xx
that should read ''full of self HATE''
also i forgot to say hi at the start
also my lovely smilies werent working, sorry peeps xx
Hello Totally fab.
Very sorry you feel so bad about yourself. You seem very upset and depressed, i think maybe you should go and talk to your doctor, as this seems far more complex than just a weight issue.
Good luck.
i am loving it and down to 180. i eat 1000-1300 a day and walk around the block thats all xx